User blog:RosieHasAHardLife/Just some feelings...

Before anyone hates on me for being so emotional and stuff, just a warning to ignore if you're not into that kind of thing because this is going to get pretty intense (I just have a lot of feelings).

Ok so it's been almost a whole day since I last spoke to T.

I mean, I saw him but he didn't talk to me. And I've been taking lots of relationship and love quizzes on the internet to see if he liked me back or not and they all say... 'Maybe'.

Sometimes maybe just isn't good enough, you know?

I just want him to love me back so he can hold me and touch me and so I can hold him and touch him without it being weird like last time.

I think I'm quite confused really. I mean sometimes T talks to me so I think that he likes me but then sometimes he doesn't and then I think maybe he doesn't like me.

What if I'm the one who should be making a move because he's a shy and timid person? What if he's the one and I just let him go? What if nothing will happen because we're both too damn proud to admit that we belong together? What if I miss the deadline even though we are meant to be?

All these damn 'What if's. All these doubts. All these feelings.

And yet here I am, pouring my heart on to the internet when I could be talking to him.

Him.

T.

My one true love.

I guess I'm just a little scared that he'll say no and it'll become awkward. Even though I know that really he likes me too, I'm just too much of a coward and that little doubt fails to escape me.

That's enough from me tonight.

Thanks for having a DMC with me everyone.

Goodnight.

Lots of love, Roastie x

p.s. Advennture Time is great.